Guess Who Loves Me More Than YOU Ever Did

This Relationship Revelation is not about my relationships with men; it's about my relationship with God.

In my last Relationship Revelation ("Life Nearly Whooped My Ass!") I talked about how God spoke to me and let me know I was coming out of my troubles. And His voice was as clear as my girlfriend, who is sitting in front of me yapping while she knows good and doggone well I'm trying to write this revelation!

Anyway, a few readers Inboxed me asking me to privately share with them how I can "hear" God talking to me so clearly. They wanted to know how I could be so sure it was God and not that lil' voice in my head that warrants psychotropic medications!

Well, the first time I realized God talks to me in a variety of ways was just after Christmas.

I'd just broken up with my boyfriend -- we'd had a huge fight. I was feeling unloved and unwanted. My father was deceased. My brother was living in New York. My sister was living in Dallas. My aunts, uncles and cousins were spread out from Mississippi to Louisiana. All my girlfriend were busy; all my guy friends were, too.

In a word, I was alone. Period.

It doesn't happen often...ya know, me being totally alone. But, life is funny that way. So is God. Yeah, He's got an insane sense of humor! When He wants you, sometimes He will isolate you. This is the first step in hearing God talk to you because, well, He's the only one around you. So, you cannot help but to hear him.

Anyway, I'm driving home taking the same scenic route through the same residential neighborhood I'd  taken all year long. I'm not really paying attention to anything in particular. It was basically house after house of the same Christmas lights that I'd been eyeballing since November. I mean, if you've seen one inflatable snowman, you've seen them all. And the same colorful lights were blinking night after night. Quite frankly, an unfamiliar driver wandering into the neighborhood might be BLINDED by all the damned lights in the neighborhood! But I'd become accustomed to them.

And I decided to pop into the CD player Raheem DeVaughn's first compilation "The Love Experience." Then my favorite track queued up..."Guess Who Loves You More."

The chorus goes like this:
Guess who loves you more (Oh love)
Guess who loves you more than he did (Girl)
Guess who treats you betta than he did?
Me, girl, me (that) that's right me
When you gon' see? Wake up and see
Guess who loves you more than he did (Me)

Guess who treats you betta than he did?

Me girl me (that) that's right me (When)

When you gon' see? Wake up and see?

And as Raheem sings those words, I pass up the same house I'd been passing up for more than a month. In the front yard was a GIGANTIC display of lights that spelled out one word...JESUS. And as Raheem sang, "Guess who loves you more than he did," my eyes fall on that sign. It was like God was actually answering the question.

(Guess who loves Michica more than anyone else in the world? Jesus!)

In my car, behind the wheel, I broke down right there. I sobbed like a fool. I mean, you would have thought someone had shot my dear mother and killed my dog. (Y'all know how I feel about that 4-legged mutt!)  I cried like I hadn't cried since my father's passing. I was suddenly filled with REAL REVELATION that God really did love me. And when no one else in the world was there for me, He had never left me. He was gonna always love me through my MESS as well as my BEST!

Raheem kept on singing. The next lyrics that came were:
My love for you can never be measured (Ain't no doubt about it)

Girl I treasure (Girl don't you ever doubt it)

Each day my love multiplies for you 

Girl as long as Father Time is on my side 

I'm gon' be by your side 

Baby you're perfect in my eyes 

You're my joy and pride

Here's why...girl I love you....you, you, you, you

Child, after that I don't even know how I got home. I was a hot mess crying in my car, and so thankful God had somehow let me know he loved me more than anyone else did. He let me know He was there when no one else was there. And I knew from then on, He would always be there no matter who came into (and out of) my life.

Soon after that episode I started tuning into my life and the things happening in it. I realized that life was not so random after all. I noticed God was putting me in places and situations that would challenge me, but would ultimately help me. He put people in my life to show me something, and the moment the lesson was learned...those folks were gone!

Today, I hear Him whisper to me gently. I'll just be sitting still somewhere reading something. And the words on the page are interrupted by a different set of words -- a message. Sometimes, I'm watching television and my thoughts about the program are interrupted by other thoughts and revelations that come straight from God. It's nothing mystical or magical. Charlton Heston isn't booming around in my brain with a Wizard of Oz type echo! Nah, it's just calm. It's just a voice, and a feeling of comfort that what I'm hearing is right.

Sit still, like the old folks tell you to. You'll hear Him talk to you. But beware: When you're busy with your own life...ha ha...God will LET you be busy. And He'll be there for you when you slow your butt down enough to listen!

Thank you for reading Relationship Revelations this year. It's been my sincere pleasure to share my life experiences with you! And I hope your 2011 is filled with wonderful Relationship Revelations! 


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